As terrified as I am in the face of a very real threat to my ability to exist, I’m doing my best to be a source of positive energy to try to counter the negative. A lot of people have become emboldened to believe that hate is okay. A lot of work and advancements that we have made in supporting peoples differences and letting everyone thrive as themselves, no matter who they are, has been destroyed overnight. A lot of fear is now happening, which is what those in power want and need to perpetuate their power. Fear kicks in…

I feel like I’ve let a lot of people down with the fact I’ve chosen an apartment over van life. Everyone seemed impressed with my van, and the fact I was going to do van life. It seemed like it inspired others that wanted to do it. It seemed to be a talking point for people that otherwise didn’t really talk to me. I did a lot to prepare for it, but I just had to make a decision late in the process based on where at the time, mentally and physically. I had so much going on that I…

Decided to start exploring Forest Park which is a gigantic park about 2 miles away. This was a walking trail so I wasn’t able to get too far before my body noped out. I’m going to try a biking trail soon so I can use my eBike and explore a little further. I love that I live in a literal rainforest.

Despite the impending hellscape we’ll get to live in, I managed to score a few major personal wins this week. The house is under contract and targeted to close the end of the month. It’s an investor so should be straightforward. Not what I wanted to sell it at, but the selling market seems to be collapsing quickly. They approved 100% financial aid for my $9000 medical bill for my appendix so that was wiped out entirely. I had left my (big) makeup bag at the house. Me being me and not wanting to inconvenience anyone, ever, I told the…

Pushed myself to get out and see an art show () and Mariachi band () at PCS on Thursday (for my ASD I took 1/4 of a valium and had my earbuds in set to low passthrough volume). I feel comfortable at PCS and will definitely keep going there. In fact, I just bought season tickets 🙂 I have yet to not see multiple other trans people there whenever I have gone.