Life / Biking / Acceptance

It’s been a while since I have posted here. I’m absolutely still alive and always doing my best to push forward despite the hellscape that is happening in the country. I’m avoiding the shit out of any news outside of Portland and comment sections on social media. My job is, well, just a job at best, but is full of microaggressions and is the trigger of most of my meltdowns these days. I hope to find something better in Portland itself and hopefully outside of IT. Medical nuances persist but I am addressing them one step at a time. Iā€¦

Thoughts…

Kind of an untrue intrusive thought but I kept feeling like I let a lot of people down with the fact I’ve chosen an apartment over van life. Everyone seemed impressed with my van, and the fact I was going to do van life. It seemed like it inspired others that wanted to do it. It seemed to be a talking point for people that otherwise didn’t really talk to me. I did a lot to prepare for it, but I just had to make a decision late in the process based on where at the time, mentally and physically.ā€¦

Finding my places

Decided to start exploring Forest Park which is a gigantic park about 2 miles away. This was a walking trail so I wasn’t able to get too far before my body noped out. I’m going to try a biking trail soon so I can use my eBike and explore a little further. I love that I live in a literal rainforest.

Mariachi

Pushed myself to get out and see an art show () and Mariachi band () at PCS on Thursday (for my ASD I took 1/4 of a valium and had my earbuds in set to low passthrough volume). I feel comfortable at PCS and will definitely keep going there. In fact, I just bought season tickets šŸ™‚ I have yet to not see multiple other trans people there whenever I have gone.