Just a little update…. Laid off from my last job. Stress about everything going on these days. Moved into a new apartment in North Portland. Drove and explored some of my favorite places in my van. Did a lot of group bike rides and have been seeing a lot of Portland and just how awesome it is. Meeting a lot of wonderful people. Had some health scares but ultimately good news. Finally feeling a bit stable and furnishing my apartment. Starting a new job next week in non-profit healthcare.

From my autistic side, and unraveling my brain in order to try to figure out myself and improve how I interact with people, I feel that there is a lot that has not “clicked” for me until recently that many other people understand much earlier in life. I’ve had to learn a lot of things that my brain just kind of ignored and I always just kind of went with despite not actually understanding. Couple that with a deep fear of conflict, I historically was just whoever people near me wanted me to be, and I had to remember which…

It’s been a while since I have posted here. I’m absolutely still alive and always doing my best to push forward despite the hellscape that is happening in the country. I’m avoiding the shit out of any news outside of Portland and comment sections on social media. My job is, well, just a job at best, but is full of microaggressions and is the trigger of most of my meltdowns these days. I hope to find something better in Portland itself and hopefully outside of IT. Medical nuances persist but I am addressing them one step at a time. I…

Decided to start exploring Forest Park which is a gigantic park about 2 miles away. This was a walking trail so I wasn’t able to get too far before my body noped out. I’m going to try a biking trail soon so I can use my eBike and explore a little further. I love that I live in a literal rainforest.

Pushed myself to get out and see an art show () and Mariachi band () at PCS on Thursday (for my ASD I took 1/4 of a valium and had my earbuds in set to low passthrough volume). I feel comfortable at PCS and will definitely keep going there. In fact, I just bought season tickets 🙂 I have yet to not see multiple other trans people there whenever I have gone.