I spent Halloween alone as my brain sabotaged an invite to an event I would have loved to go (and worked myself into full anxiety so could not go later), but I dressed up for myself anyway. Did my best having only my left hand to do makeup.

Pictures of the aftermath of trying to learn to roller skate in June, and all the metal I now have in my wrist as of October. I had fell backwards and tried to stop myself with my right hand. I thought it was just a sprain for over a month, took another month to get in for an xray, another month for insurance to approve a CT scan, and a couple months to get in for surgery. I snapped my scaphoid in half, and it started healing at a 70 degree angle so it had to be cut in half…

A lot has happened this past month. Not the first time in my life I have dealt with unrelenting garbage, but to top off an already fun month in my personal life, I blew the one last fuse I managed to keep going for my entire work life. Whenever I have job issues and I want to give up and quit, I jump to my worst fear being losing my job. That being in big part because if I don’t find a job right away, I will lose my home. I have always lived paycheck to paycheck. I then have…